Inadequate

Honesty, that is what I am striving to put on here on an almost daily basis...Today I was reminded by a friend who loves me very much, about the story of Moses. In the midst of feeling very inadequate today she reminded me that Moses felt the very same way. The God who gave Moses the words to speak and the wisdom to know what to do is the same God who loves me. As I sit here tonight I am overwhelmed by the events of the week. There are so many new things going on in my life and I don't feel as though I deserve/can handle everything. In my own ability I can't...I have to believe the promises that He has given me and know that His ways, timing, and plans are perfect...if I could only trust 24 hours a day. Sometimes I cling so strongly to things in hopes that I won't have to give them up, but I know that is not ok. We can hold on tight, but with open hands. I think God is working on changing my perspective if I can just let go. Obviously I can not always have my way, my plans are not His plans and why it is taking me so long to understand is beyond me!
My emotions are out of control as I sit here tonight and sleep seems many tense muscles away. So I will close with this, my prayer for tonight...

Divine Promises

Glorious Jehovah, My Covenant God,
All thy promises in Christ Jesus are yea and amen,
and all shall be fulfilled.
Thou hast spoken them, and they shall be done,
commanded, and they shall come to pass.
Yet I have often doubted thee,
have lived at times as if there were no God.
Lord, forgive me that death in life,
when I have found something apart from thee,
when I have been content with ephemeral things.
But through thy grace I have repented;
Thou hast given me to read my pardon
in the wounds of Jesus,
and my soul doth trust in him, my God incarnate
the ground of my life, the spring of my hope.
Teach me to be resigned to thy will,
to delight in thy law,
to have no will but thine,
to believe that everything thou doest is for my good.
Help me to leave my concerns in thy hands,
for thou hast power over evil,
and bringest fromit an infinite progression of good,
until thy purposes are fulfilled.
Bless me with Abraham's faith
that staggers not at promises through unbelief.
May I not instruct thee in my troubles,
but glorify thee in my trials;
Grant me a distinct advance in the divine life;
May I reach higher platform,
leave the mists of doubt and fear in the valley,
and climb to hill-tops of eternal security in Christ
by simply believeing he cannot lie,
or turn from his purpose.
Give me the confidence I ought to have in him
who is worthy to be praised,
and who is blessed for evermore.